Changing places and faces
Without trying to explain myself in a roundabout, metaphorical way, I’m just going to say it, and have it out there: I’m scared to finish college.
I’m afraid to leave the community into which I have only recently found myself actually feeling a part of. It took the guts of three years – and now my course is almost finished. What the hell do I do with my life?!
For anyone going through a major life transition, be it from school to college; college to the outside world; your current college course to another; an Erasmus programme abroad; or even just an upheaval and relocation to another home address, the most important thing is not, as most would assume, to ensure you keep your arms and legs inside the vehicle at all times, or making sure you do everything correctly and in accordance to consensus (snore).
It’s to keep your thoughts in check and the way you process all this new information, new acquaintances, and ultimately new chapter of your life. It is truly a mind-boggling experience, being shoved mercilessly head first into a sea of people, locations, and information, half of which you didn’t desire or even know existed in the first place.
Excitement in the uncertainty
This is where I’ll make my first positive affirmation; daunting and devaluating as this unknown realm of adulthood all sounds. You cannot deny that there is also a certain element of excitement to it. Sure, I don’t have the slightest inkling where on earth I will be twelve months from now. I’ve no idea how I will be paying my bills or funding my ever-intensifying relationship with Urban Outfitters and Topshop. But isn’t that half the fun??
Stumbling along your way
As someone whose experience has led her to believe that last minute plans always work out to be the most rewarding, I can most definitely see the exhilarating aspect to it all. Starting out with nothing and stumbling your way blindly to somewhere you’ll be happy, because, after all, that’s really what it’s all about, isn’t it?
Happiness. In my experience you’re not going to be happy anywhere unless you’re happy with yourself. Which could lead me on to subtly redirect this train of thought to promoting healthy eating and general wellbeing (which of course is also vital to your continuing happiness), but let’s just focus on the external factors, before I get too distracted and go make myself some green tea…
There really are so many options out there for young people today. With the ever-increasing amount of college courses and opportunities that now exist, you’d be absolutely foolish to barricade your possibilities into one room or onto one route for your life to take.
How far you’ve come
Sure, it’s scary. It’s daunting. But, so was that first day in playschool. Look how far you’ve come? How many new experiences have you had since then, and dealt with accordingly? It’s going to happen you know. You’re GOING to finish college, there’s no point trying to deny it or prolong the time you have to make any decisions.
Start with the blank canvas
If you’re like me and have that big naked, blank canvas in your head that stretches out ahead whenever you think of September 2013. Try and look at the positive side of it – it’s blank. It can become ANYTHING you want. Anything. I just want to live…and be happy?! Is that too much to ask?